Wednesday, October 10, 2007
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
Feeling Violated
We have a door that leads out of the garage and into the backyard. With the renovations on our house, that door has gotten an extremely large amount of use lately and it wasn't a very good door to begin with.
Last night when we went to shut it, we noticed that it wasn't lining up right. It wouldn't shut, and pieces of the trim around it were coming off. The extra padlock wouldn't line up either. We started to wonder if someone had tried to break in. It's been obvious to people driving by that we are having work done on our house - and often times that leads to break-ins, and trying to steal the expensive tools used with any remodeling project.
While I was trying to keep a level head and think logically, a part of me did start to wonder "What if..."
About an hour later my mom called to me again - the construction guys put up plywood to block off the remodeling room from the rest of the house. My mom noticed that a piece of trim that the plywood was attached to was missing and pieces of the plywood had littered the floor.
Odd I thought. But it wasn't until we thought further that we started to question how nothing seemed to fit - the door, the plywood. The guys hadn't been working on our house that day, and we assumed they had taken their tools out of the garage, but it just seemed kind of suspicious. Thankfully we called the guy doing the work and found out that yes, they had the tools and that most likely his co-worker had come by and decided to remove the plywood only to reach resistance.
Even though we are pretty positive no one was in our house that didn't belong, that still didn't keep me from feeling violated. The thought, even though brief, of someone else in my house really bothered me. And made me question how secure I feel in my own home. Kinda funny how something that never happened, can make you feel completely uncomfortable.
Needless to say, the door is getting fixed as we speak - that is if the workmen can get through all our baricades to make sure it kept unwanted people out last night. Yep, we're nothing if not resourceful.
Last night when we went to shut it, we noticed that it wasn't lining up right. It wouldn't shut, and pieces of the trim around it were coming off. The extra padlock wouldn't line up either. We started to wonder if someone had tried to break in. It's been obvious to people driving by that we are having work done on our house - and often times that leads to break-ins, and trying to steal the expensive tools used with any remodeling project.
While I was trying to keep a level head and think logically, a part of me did start to wonder "What if..."
About an hour later my mom called to me again - the construction guys put up plywood to block off the remodeling room from the rest of the house. My mom noticed that a piece of trim that the plywood was attached to was missing and pieces of the plywood had littered the floor.
Odd I thought. But it wasn't until we thought further that we started to question how nothing seemed to fit - the door, the plywood. The guys hadn't been working on our house that day, and we assumed they had taken their tools out of the garage, but it just seemed kind of suspicious. Thankfully we called the guy doing the work and found out that yes, they had the tools and that most likely his co-worker had come by and decided to remove the plywood only to reach resistance.
Even though we are pretty positive no one was in our house that didn't belong, that still didn't keep me from feeling violated. The thought, even though brief, of someone else in my house really bothered me. And made me question how secure I feel in my own home. Kinda funny how something that never happened, can make you feel completely uncomfortable.
Needless to say, the door is getting fixed as we speak - that is if the workmen can get through all our baricades to make sure it kept unwanted people out last night. Yep, we're nothing if not resourceful.
Friday, October 05, 2007
A Little Too Close...
Last night in the car I heard a song that hit a little too close to home.
I have a hard time letting others be strong for me. I haven't always been like this, but like with so many life lessons, comes baggage as well. And trusting others to hold me up when I am on the brink of breaking down is something I don't do. There have been a few people I am close to who have not only gained my trust, but have been strong enough for me to feel as if I can be weak. When I heard this song it served as a reminder that I not only need to let others be strong for me, but I need to trust that they will catch me when I finally do fall apart.
Fall by Clay Walker
Hold up there you go again
Puttin on that smile again
Even though I know you’ve had a bad day
Doin this and doin that
Always puttin’ yourself last
A whole lotta give and not enough take
But you can only be strong so long before you break…
So fall go on and fall apart
Fall into these arms of mine
Ill catch you every time you fall
Go on and lose it all
Every doubt every fear every worry every tear
Im right here
Baby fall
Forget about the world tonight
All that’s wrong and all that’s right
Lay your head on my shoulder let it fade away
And if you wanna let go baby its okay
Fall go on and fall apart
Fall into these arms of mine
Ill catch you every time you fall
Go on and lose it all
Every doubt, every fear, every worry, every tear
Im right here
Baby fall
Hold on hold on hold on to me...
Fall go on and fall apart
Fall into these arms of mine
Ill catch you every time you fall
Go on and lose it all
Every doubt, every fear, every worry, every tear
Im right here
Baby fall
I have a hard time letting others be strong for me. I haven't always been like this, but like with so many life lessons, comes baggage as well. And trusting others to hold me up when I am on the brink of breaking down is something I don't do. There have been a few people I am close to who have not only gained my trust, but have been strong enough for me to feel as if I can be weak. When I heard this song it served as a reminder that I not only need to let others be strong for me, but I need to trust that they will catch me when I finally do fall apart.
Fall by Clay Walker
Hold up there you go again
Puttin on that smile again
Even though I know you’ve had a bad day
Doin this and doin that
Always puttin’ yourself last
A whole lotta give and not enough take
But you can only be strong so long before you break…
So fall go on and fall apart
Fall into these arms of mine
Ill catch you every time you fall
Go on and lose it all
Every doubt every fear every worry every tear
Im right here
Baby fall
Forget about the world tonight
All that’s wrong and all that’s right
Lay your head on my shoulder let it fade away
And if you wanna let go baby its okay
Fall go on and fall apart
Fall into these arms of mine
Ill catch you every time you fall
Go on and lose it all
Every doubt, every fear, every worry, every tear
Im right here
Baby fall
Hold on hold on hold on to me...
Fall go on and fall apart
Fall into these arms of mine
Ill catch you every time you fall
Go on and lose it all
Every doubt, every fear, every worry, every tear
Im right here
Baby fall
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
Thoughts while baking...
• I am so blessed to have a mom that was patient enough to let me help bake as a young child. I can’t remember a time I didn’t know how to bake and through the years I have grown to love baking.
• I am so blessed to have a dad that was patient enough to teach me how to use tools, how to paint and basic common sense in a construction environment. How easy it would have been, as well as faster, to have done it all himself. But he took the time to instill those things where they have stayed through the years.
• I hope when I have kids I never lose perspective on what is important. I like to find the most efficient way possible to get something done, and I hope I will remember to take the extra time to build those memories with my children.
• I’ve been doing a lot of processing and thinking lately. Mostly about “big” life issues. God’s been doing some work in me.
• Some of that thinking has been on the topic of “fear”. I feel like as soon as I deal with one fear, and have it somewhat under control, another fear gets presented to me. I guess when you avoid or run from the things that frighten you the most to deal with, they always come back around. Those are the times I get walloped over the head with them. So much so that I can’t avoid them.
• I wonder if I will ever learn to just deal with my fears from the get-go.
• I have some amazing people in my life. Last week when I was tired and exhausted all I had to look around and see people around me holding me up, supporting me and encouraging me. It meant more than words could ever express.
• I am so blessed to have a dad that was patient enough to teach me how to use tools, how to paint and basic common sense in a construction environment. How easy it would have been, as well as faster, to have done it all himself. But he took the time to instill those things where they have stayed through the years.
• I hope when I have kids I never lose perspective on what is important. I like to find the most efficient way possible to get something done, and I hope I will remember to take the extra time to build those memories with my children.
• I’ve been doing a lot of processing and thinking lately. Mostly about “big” life issues. God’s been doing some work in me.
• Some of that thinking has been on the topic of “fear”. I feel like as soon as I deal with one fear, and have it somewhat under control, another fear gets presented to me. I guess when you avoid or run from the things that frighten you the most to deal with, they always come back around. Those are the times I get walloped over the head with them. So much so that I can’t avoid them.
• I wonder if I will ever learn to just deal with my fears from the get-go.
• I have some amazing people in my life. Last week when I was tired and exhausted all I had to look around and see people around me holding me up, supporting me and encouraging me. It meant more than words could ever express.
Monday, October 01, 2007
Much Needed....
Saturday night after church a group of us hit up Wine Down for Becca's birthday. Few of you know how I feel about Wine Down. I absolutely love it! It's a fun, kinda "chill" environment with amazing food and a wine I actually like! Granted, Saturday night I decided against having a glass of wine with dinner - after many exhausting days, and not as much sleep as I require, I knew wine would make me too sleepy to drive home or to enjoy dinner for that matter. So I settled for a sip of my favorite from a friend's glass. While it isn't a cheap place to eat, the food is amazing! Try it sometime...trust me...
The Birthday Girl, Becca, and cute Steph!
Some of the girlies hanging at Wine Down.
Amazing Mac and Cheese!! Yum!
I'm so tired and ready to go to bed at this point!
More fun pictures while waiting for our yummy food!
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