Tuesday, March 28, 2006

Welcome to my life...

As most of you know, I am a completely random person with completely random thoughts, so today's post is a post of random tidbits of my thoughts today...hold on to your seats...not quite sure where this is going to head....

Last night was "24" - man oh man just when you thought this show couldnt get any better, Fox goes and ups the ante. WOW - WOW - All I can say is WOW... It left me up on my feet, pulling at my hair, slightly yelling at the TV and then feeling quite angry that I had to wait A WHOLE WEEK to see what will happen! Every year this show keeps getting better and more suspenseful...it gets me stressed out from about this point to the end, and yes I keep watching! I am, what you would call, completely and utterly addicted to this show! My new favorite quote is "Superman wears Jack Bauer pajamas" - does it get any better!?!?!

When work goes crazy, Dove Dark Chocolate is my friend. It is what is keeping my sanity today - gonna pay for it later though when I start my workout regime again tonight after weeks off (yes I am a slacker)

Hopefully in August I will be heading to India with GCC on a mission trip to strengthen women church builders in India. Never thought I would be so excited to head to someplace that smells not so pleasant, where I have to wear long skirts, everyone is speaking a language I DONT KNOW and I have the room for only one tiny suitcase. But I am flying high - knowing this is what God wants me to do!

A certain un-named model of HP printer is a pain in the tush that apparently can't handle the pressure of the library - and they keep dropping like flies. And guess who gets to take care of it....ME :)

I can't wait for the nice weather that is supposed to hit tomorrow - I am tired of cold hands and wearing socks and shoes everyday. It needs to be sandal time!

I am so pumped that Kate is not going to Texas. I must say I was sad to just meet her only to have her leave...I mean, she understands my big truck, cowboy, motorcyle thing....and Kiefer Sutherland. I am so excited she will be around to get to know better!

I need a vacation.

I have just recently discovered Warren Barfield and I love his music! I must purchase another album of his soon!

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

Marvelous Light...

These last few weeks have been completely amazing! I can't go into all the details since my time is limited right now, but I just had to post about the amazing things God has been doing in my life!

I have never before had my heart strings tug like they have been lately. I can honestly say that for once in my life I gave complete control over to God...and I have never been happier! Amazing opportunities have been popping up in front of me, opportunities I never realized I wanted to be a part of before, opportunities I never would have been open to before!

Last year at the Leadership Summit Bill Hybels talked about finding your Holy Discontent. Over the past year I have tried to make things into my holy discontent. I have tried over and over and over to analyze what my Holy Discontent was - what fired me up inside - where my passion lies - who or what will I give me all for. Only when I gave control over to God did I realize how long He has been trying to speak to me - how obvious then my Holy Discontent hit me!

I always envisioned my spiritual journey as a nice walk in the woods, on a path headed in towards God. But right now it is different...I am running full speed ahead towards the Marvelous Light God is shining my way - and for once, I am not afraid. I'm running towards something and I wouldn't have it any other way! Kinda reminds me of the song Marvelous Light by Charlie Hall (which has a whole 'nother story behind it for me...) so I am posting the lyrics on here as well...

I once was fatherless,
a stranger with no hope;
Your kindness wakened me,
Awakened me, from my sleep

Your love it beckons deeply,
a call to come and die.
By grace now I will come
And take this life, take your life.

Sin has lost it's power,
death has lost it's sting.
From the grave you've risen


Into marvelous light I'm running,
Out of darkness, out of shame.
By the cross you are the truth,
You are the life, you are the way

My dead heart now is beating,
My deepest stains now clean.
Your breath fills up my lungs.
Now I'm free. now I'm free!

Lift my hands and spin around,
See the light that I have found.
Oh the marvelous light
Marvelous light

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

crazy, but maybe good...

Today had to have been the most insane day I have had in a long long long time. Given it was a full moon which always puts us library people on guard, but I had no idea of what the day would hold when I walked in our building this morning - otherwise I would have kept on walking....

I must say first that this weekend's storms took out our router at the main library - leaving us gasping for straws and finding a temporary fix. The temporary fix left other problems to be dealt with for most of the day. I only got half of my lunch hour because I had to take a call from our tech guy to talk through fixing some of this craziness!! Just when I thought the worst was dealt with, I WAS WRONG! Our branch that I also happen to work at calls...the construction guys working on replacing some pipes under our driveway for our new heating and cooling tower cut into our Cable line - which runs our internet and everyone of our service desks. They were left with one computer that happened to be on the old, slow line, that today saved our tushes! Long story short, after many many many phone calls, turns out when they tried to splice the cable line, they did a bad job and missed two other places it was cut through as well! Comcast had to be called in to remedy the situation! UG! So tomorrow I have to head to work earlier than scheduled to meet the computer guy. No worries though, my boss is making sure I get time off Thursday for the time missed for lunch and heading in early tomorrow.

I have to admit though there is a major plus to how busy I was today - I didn't have time to be sad. One of my friends was killed almost 5 years ago and today would have been his birthday. While every year it gets a little easier, I always end up kinda sad and down in the dumps. Today though I didnt have time to dwell on it. I had a job to do and I did it. I can't help but wonder if this kind of day is what I needed to help me to cope. Even now, with quiet all around me, I'm okay. I miss him and his hugs, but really, truly am okay. I feel like God has finally healed my heart and helped me to forgive the person I blamed for his death. Crazy how an insane day can sometimes bring about a peaceful end...

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

Wonderful Day

I have been tithing at my church for years now, only I would often pay my tithe last. And as much as I hate to admit it, sometimes I did not particularly like giving up the money I could use for other things. Just recently I have been tithing first and actually been wanting to give more. I'm finally starting to catch up on my building fund pledge and really enjoying that also. It didn't occur to me until this morning how God would bless me for this.

I received a phone call at work from my credit card company (never a good sign) so of course I thought, OH GREAT! The pit of my stomach dropped and I came close to freaking. I had pre-arranged payments that ended last month and it just occured to me that I needed to call and get set up again. So as this lady is talking to me she said she wanted to set up payments again and that there had been a mistake before ('nother bad sign in my book) only then she says she noticed whoever processed my arranged payments last time made a mistake! And that the interest rate was supposed to be lowered and all the extra charges weren't supposed to be there either, and that my account was going to be CREDITED all the way back to August!! I think I went into a state of shock!

Then I was talking to my boss on the phone who asked if I wanted to use her parking pass (which is not cheap) so I can park closer to the downtown library when I work there since she can't use it right now!!

So my day is going great and then it just gets better! Naomi walked in! It was so great to get to see her and chat for a few minutes. And she went and got me a Starbucks Cafe Mocha! What a sweetie!!! I absolutely love it when people stop in my work and surprise me and it doesnt happen very often anymore. Stephen used to as he was driving by for the Silverhawks, which has stopped. And Jonathan used to as well, and, well, that can't happen since it would be a loooooong way to stop in from California! (Although Jon that would be a freakin awesome surprise!)

Its amazing how when you least expect it, amazing things happen in your life. God has really blessed me today!

Monday, March 06, 2006

Beautiful Weekend

This weekend was absolutely beautiful to me! I finally had a day off from work, and it was glorious!! Those of you who are around me at all, talk with me with any regularity, or read my blog know how stressed and crazed I have been at work lately. And I finally got a day off last week. I must say I don't think I have ever been so excited for a three day weekend in my life! To hear me talk about it, you would have thought I was leaving on a vacation! Friday I woke up at an actually decent time all on my own and got to work on cleaning and organizing my room. What a huge undertaking! I am not quite done yet, but I am hopeful to be with some evening time ahead. While you wouldn't think that I could enjoy cleaning, it was wonderful to listen to Third Day, Lifesong and the Rascal Flatts on random while trying to accomplish my task. I took a mini-break to run to walmart for storage containers and food for the week ahead and then headed back to work! I got to talk with some of my favorite people and then did a nice Tae-Bo workout - man does it feel good! I was just really happy all day! (That is partially due to my wonderful night at church Thursday, but another blog about that at a later time...) Then it was off to Starbucks and to Walk the Line with some friends.

Saturday was spent painting at Jeremy's - it was sunny and beautiful outside as well! And of course I love to paint and all that type of stuff (yes I am strange) and I got completely covered with either paint or plaster dust (I was a scary sight, just ask Jessica!) Then it was home to CLEAN UP and off to an amazing night at church! Then to Hacienda which is always a blast, where I finally got to see Lindsey! and bed at an actual decent time!

Sunday was full of amazing time with people I love, awesome conversations, and a glorious nap! Sigh!
Even though I had to head back to work today, I must say, I am much happier and more relaxed, so bring on the crazy people! (Well, not really...)

Thursday, March 02, 2006


Today would be Dr. Seuss' 102nd birthday if he was still with us - I know, some of you are not nearly as excited as I am that it is Dr. Seuss' birthday, but oh well, I'm posting about it anyway! I have to say I LOVE Dr. Seuss. His books are classics that will withstand the test of time, and already have. He had a gift for writing unlike any other writer. After he passed away, there was a book left unfinishted. Another writer tried to finish it writing as Dr. Seuss. It is just not the same. It is obviously not an original Dr. Seuss book.

While I love so many of the Dr. Seuss books, none quite match up to Green Eggs and Ham and The Lorax. It's amazing how much a Dr. Seuss book can pertain to every day life. Green Eggs and Ham really makes me think about faith and my relationship with God. How many times has God asked me to try something - something He knows is good, something He knows I will like, and yet I don't. Just like Sam says in Green Eggs and Ham "Try Them Try Them" God is constantly asking me to trust Him, and sometimes I find myself resisting something new. Something different. Something "green".