Thursday, November 30, 2006

And so goes the randomness...

What some people may not realize about me is that I really, truly am a random person. I just have a good inner filter. (Plus I dont always share everything running through my brain with people until I know them well)

Many of you by now have probably realized that I love random blogs. So even though I posted a random blog just a few days ago, here is another one.

What can I say...I have too many thoughts, questions and random factoids running through my brain! Some deep, some crazy, some thoughtful, some of everything...

~ I have some gray hairs. Apparently this fact shocks people. A few months ago Stephen noticed one and wigged out on me. And a few weeks ago Lindz found one and was equally as shocked. I guess I should take it as a compliment. Anyway, last night I pulled out a gray hair only to discover half was gray and half was brown. Has anyone else ever had this experience? Or am I just a freak?
~ I actually miss snow. *shudder* I can't believe I admitted it, but I do. It doesn't feel like Christmas is coming without having some. Thankfully this will be remedied tonight. Which, unfortunately, means that I will have to start waking up and leaving early to accomadate scraping and driving time.
~ Just read Corey Mann's blog from a few days ago, which linked to some random guys blog - it was so good I had to blog about it. Read it here! Its sooo worth it! (And its short!)
~ How come all the books I have been waiting for the library to get all show up at once! I need a week off to do nothing but stay home and read! Hey God can you snow us in for a week so I get paid to NOT work :)
~ How do we truly love people who constantly hurt us and lie to us? Where is the line of loving others and watching out for yourself? And the line of stretching yourself too far?
~ Do I tell people enough that I love them?
~ Do I show people enough that I love them?
~ Corey posted another blog that really made me stop and go "yeah...thats so true..." Read it here...
~ One of the ladies I went to India with is having some possible major health issues. I'm worried, but trying to trust God about it. Pray for her.
~ Is it possible to be addicted to salad? If so, then I think I am.
~ I've decided, after discussing the issue with Jen last night, that I am no longer telling people I am on a diet. Because in my mind it isnt a diet. It never has been. I'm now choosing to call it a healthy lifestyle. I feel great, I feel healthier and I very rarely crave junk. (Although I am currently eating a few dark chocolate M&Ms - there's a good reason for it though...) I have found the thing I crave the most are these zucchini chips from Cooking Light Magazine that a lady I work with gave me the recipe for. They are amazing!
~ I go the Biggest Loser Workout DVD from the library last week. I tried it Tuesday night. Talk about kicking your butt! I am still feeling the after effects! I actually didnt work out last night because of it!
~ We are about to start computer inventory at work. This is gonna be a rough couple of weeks. Every computer that has been moved, swapped or changed has to be noted. I have changed ALOT this year without really realizing this would be coming.
~ 24 starts in just over a month! So excited!
~ New Years is going to be so awesome this year!
~ Three weeks and then I am on vacation for a week and a half! WOOHOO!
~ Thanksgiving weekend was much needed! I got to spend lots of time with my family as well as my awesome friends!

Tuesday, November 28, 2006


Random thoughts so far today:

~ I absolutely LOVE Subway! I just had one of the most amazing sandwiches...
~ I'm not a big fan of plain chocolate bars. I tend to avoid them and currently I am trying to avoid chocolate and sweets of all kinds (Why ruin all my hard effort working out...) But today a co-worker brought in a dark chocolate espresso candy bar. She made me try it. Jeez Louise it was amazing. Tasted just like a Cafe Mocha. Definitely not a good thing for me to know...this is when self-control must take over.
~ Is it a full moon yet? Because there are strange things happening with computers lately...
~ Got stared at and practically ogled by a creepy old guy today. Freaks me out. Wonder what will happen as I keep losing weight...will probably get worse...
~ Have even more questions running through my mind than I did yesterday. One God answered though. In kind of a crazy way. Details later.
~ Just watched a news story on about a mother accused of microwaving her baby last year. Even if the mother is innocent, what kind of psychotic person would do that to a child. It hurts my heart.
~ Reading an amazing book - Praise Habit by David Crowder. Only a few chapters in, but it has really gotten me thinking as well as made me laugh. Highly recommend this!
~ Gilmore Girls is on tonight, I am very excited!
~ Tae-Bo is totally kicking my butt. Been in pain a lot lately - Guess that means its working.

Monday, November 27, 2006


I have found myself doing alot of thinking lately.

I tend to read alot. What can I say, I work at a library, I like books.

Only lately every book I read is throwing questions at me right and left. Questions that I can't seem to get past, or move on from, until I figure out my "answers". Questions that keep me pondering after I have put the book down and "moved on" with my everyday life.

But then come the questions my own mind is spewing out at a fairly consistent rate. Questions that I have been running from my entire life. Things I haven't wanted to truly think about. But know I need to.

Thoughts that I am afraid to think.

Knowing in my heart that the end result will be better than the inner world I am living in right now.

The fear of thinking.

But I am going to continue thinking anyway. And trying to answer the questions that are never ceasing.

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

More than words

Sometimes a song can express exactly how I feel, when I otherwise could not. Actually, this happens quite often. Today is no different.

This is one of my favorite songs by Rascal Flatts. I may have previously blogged about it, but I am going to once again, because this is the song of my heart right now...enjoy!

"My Wish"

I hope that the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
And each road leads you where you want to go,
And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,

But more than anything, more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
All the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
And you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
And you always give more than you take.

But more than anything, yeah, and more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

This is my wish
I hope you know somebody loves you
May all your dreams stay big

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

Little Glimpses of ME

1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought? Wow I look bad when I get up…
2. How much cash do you have on you?Maybe $1.50?
3. What's a word that rhymes with "DOOR"?Floor
4. Favorite planet?I always liked Jupiter because I thought it was pretty
5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?Sarah B.
6. What is your favorite ring on your phone?God Bless the USA
7. What are you wearing?My cute old navy pants from the local goodwill!, black turtleneckish shirt and a gray sweater
8. Do you "label" yourself?I think everyone does to an extent
9. Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing:No clue
10. Bright or Dark Room?I love sunlight, so I am going to say bright. Unless I am watching a movie or trying to sleep, then dark
11. What do you think about the person who took this survey?I think Adam is flippin hilarious
13. What were you doing at midnight last night?Closing my eyes to sleep, thinking, why am I still up again?
14. What did your last text message you received on your cell say? No idea…I think it was Sarah B. telling me about her back…
15. Where is your nearest 7-11?Right now there is one like 2-3 blocks away
16. What's a word that you say a lot?Bajankatee
17. Who told you they loved you last?My mom
18. Last furry thing you touched?Scruffy
19. How many drugs have you done in the past seven days?None
20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?I probably have some old ones in a closet somewhere I never developed…
21. Favorite age been so far?3…I was somewhat independent, loved school, got to play all the time, had nap time, and I was flippin adorable!
22. Type of people who bug you?Liars and people who want something for nothing
23. What is your current desktop picture?A picture of Melissa, Laura, Lindsey, Me, Mike and Rich in KC! With Bentley right in the middle!!
24. What was the last thing you said to someone?“OH I’m so mad right now…”
25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly?I’d take the money, hands down…not only could I help a ton of people, if I really wanted to “fly” somewhere I could afford plane tickets!
26. Do you like someone?I like most people…as long as they don’t drive me crazy! (Was that evasive enough for ya…)
27. The last song you listened to?Not sure which song, but it was the Leeland CD I had on in my car on the way to work
28. Last person you called?My boss at the other library
29. Last person/s you got your picture taken with?The KC road trip people!
30. Last person you kissed?My mom
31. Last thing you ate?An awesome salad at lunch!
32. What is currently in your dvd player? A kick-my-butt workout DVD
33. Last person you held hands with? Probably Carson
34. Who are you currently thinking of? The dumb guy who screwed up my checking account by not listening to me!

The Allure of the Button...

I am not a morning person.

When I was a baby and even through the younger years apparently I was.

Not anymore.

In the last few weeks I had a revelation. Its November. I am no where near my new years resolution for a lifestyle change...and I finally got angry enough at myself to do something about it.

I have been working out every day, sometimes twice, for two 1/2 weeks, missing only one day due to the inability to move after the previous evenings workout. I have only had a small amount of chocolate (it was people's birthdays so I joined in the cake fun - no worries, only a small piece) and haven't had chocolate touch my lips in a week now. Nor really junk of any kind. What can I say, I got fed up.

I am a stubborn and determined person. Not always. Just when I hit my breaking point. Some people call it my feisty side. Well, watch out world cuz the feisty side is out full scale!

--Okay, so I know it seems somewhere along this blog I have lost my focus. But stay with me... I really do have purpose here --

I have been trying to get up early in the mornings to work out.
About 40% of the time I have been successful. The other 60. Well...not so successful.

I end up succumbing to the allure of a certain button located at the center of my alarm clock.
The Snooze button.
While I love the person who invented the snooze button, I also find myself perturbed at the fellow, or lady, who invented this button I have a love/hate relationship with. I love to sleep in. But when I need to get up, often times I have found I have utilized the snooze button so many times that an hour of my morning it wasted, and suddenly I am rushing around hoping to still make it to work on time.

Ah the allure of the ever popular snooze button...maybe my next alarm should not include one...

Although then I might just turn my alarm completely off in my sleep...and that might be even worse...

Monday, November 20, 2006

Yes, I may be making the switch... Verizon. Laura, stop jumping up and down and gloating. I know you have been wanting it. I guess I may be swallowing my pride and switching to Verizon here shortly...

What can I say...the have the best plan for my family for the money...

Friday, November 17, 2006

Computers that bite...

Yes, believe it or not, today I got bit by a computer.

Now an everyday person's definition of being "bit" is slightly different from a computer person's defintion of being "bit".

In other words, I got shocked.

My branch manager's computer died this morning - and its her third hard drive. Yes, we have some major power issues.

We weren't sure if the problem came through the power line (which is on a battery backup/surge protector) or if it came through the network line (also going through a freakin' powerful network surge protector)

The network surge protector apparently doesn't protect all that well, because that is what bit me.

I swear our computers are possessed today.

Is it a full moon??

Who I am - on the road to who I am becoming...

Do you ever just stop for a minute and think about who you are, and who you are becoming?

I often think about the person I want to become and try to continue taking steps in that direction. But I don't often stop and look back at the road I have traveled. I forget to pay attention to how far I have come.

Last night was an amazing night at church. As I was driving to, as well as during the beginning of the service, I found myself thinking about everything else I could be doing right then. (Not an easy thing to admit...) I knew this was the wrong mindset to be in so I stopped thinking and chatted with God for a few seconds. I needed to focus and I knew it could only come from him at this point...and He came through...

Last night God finally got through to me - it was something he has been trying to teach me and show me from the very beginning only I never truly understood it. I do now. And I have been prone to getting teary-eyed ever since. Tears of pure joy. Tears of overwhelming humility. Tears of thanks to a Father who never ceases to amaze me with his love. I finally get it.

And then later last evening something else suddenly hit me. I am not the person I was a year ago. My mind set, my thinking, my capacity to love, my relationship with Christ, so many things have changed and I have been so focused on the road ahead of me, I forgot to stop and take time and see how far I have come.

Life is a journey. Some moments are hard, some are easy. Some are painful, some are pure bliss.

You Never Let Go
By Matt Redman

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
Your perfect love is casting out fear
And even when I’m caught in the middle of the storms of this life
I won’t turn back
I know You are near

And I will fear no evil
For my God is with me
And if my God is with me
Whom then shall I fear?
Whom then shall I fear?

Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me

And I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
A glorious light beyond all compare A
nd there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
We’ll live to know You here on the earth

Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me

Yes, I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
Still I will praise You,
still I will praise You

Thursday, November 16, 2006

50 ODD things about ME

50 ODD Things about you

1. Height? 5'4 1/2 with shoes
2. Have you ever smoked heroin? nope
3. Do you own a gun? nope
4. How do you take your tea? normally plain - but Chai is my favorite!
5. Do you get nervous before "meeting the parents"? depends...sometimes yes, sometimes no
6. What do you think of hot dogs? Only good grilled
7. What's your favorite Christmas song? Winter Wonderland - it has sentimental reasons - but I love alot of them!
8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Milk or tea
9. Can you do push ups? HA! Hardly! But I am working on it!
10. Is your bathroom clean? pretty much
11. What's your favorite piece of jewelry? my grandmother's pearl necklace
12. Do you like painkillers? when I am in pain, sure do!
13. What is the best concert you've been to? wow...thats a toughy...
14. Do you have A.D.D.? sometimes I think I "oh wait, whats that shiny object..."
15. Does anyone in your immediate family have a history of psychosis? uh no
16. Middle Name? Michelle
17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment?1. Why is it always so cold in the lab. 2. Hope the computers hold their connection this time 3. Can't wait for the holidays!
18. Name the last 3 things you have bought:1. Gas 2. Food this weekend 3. Water
19. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink:1. Water 2. Milk 3. Coffee with stuff in it
20. Do you think you're attractive? Sometimes - I do think I am cute though
21. Have you ever lied? I think everyone has...
22. Current worry? Waiting for pay day
23. Current hate? Evil
24. Favorite place to be? With people I love, but other than that I love nature. I want to see all the beautiful places in the world!
25. Least favorite place to be? Curled up next to the toilet when you have the flu
26. Where would you like to go? Right now, some place warm - like Arizona so I could see my family too
27. Do you own slippers? Sure do!
28. What shirt are you wearing? A tan one
29. Do you burn or tan? Both
30. Favorite color(s)? They alternate regularly and vary depending on what type of things we are talking about
31. Would you be a pirate? No but Johnny Depp sure is hot as one
32. What is or are your guiltiest pleasure(s)? Chocolate
33. What songs do you sing in the shower? Whatever comes to mind, or whatever I am listening to at the time
34. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child? Not much
35. What's in your pockets right now? Nothin
36. Last thing that made you laugh? Deb or Lisa
37. Last thing that made you cry? A video on the internet
38. Worst injury you've ever had? Split my lip open when I was a kid - had to get stitches
39. How many tv's do you have in your house?1
40. What was your first pet's name? Tiger
41. Who is your loudest friend? Laura or Kate
42. Who is your most silent friend? Rich! But when he talks, listen up cuz its gonna either be important or flipping hilarious!
43. Does someone have a crush on you? No clue
44. Do you wish on shooting stars? Never seen one :(
45. What is your favorite book? Right now I'd say Flashbang
46. Favorite candy? Dark Chocolate
47. What song do/did you want played at your wedding? Not sure, there are so many good ones. Ask me when the time comes...
48. What song do you want played at your funeral? No clue
49. What were you doing 12 AM last night? Sleeping
50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up this morning? Man I kept turning off both alarms again!

Wednesday, November 15, 2006


God is a funny guy.

No seriously, he is. Sometimes I just have to stop and laugh when I look at what he has thrown my way.

This last weekend a few of us went roadtripping. We got on our way Thursday evening and we were all kind of "rushed" and impatient about wanting to get to Kansas City to visit our friends. Then the deer incident happened. If you haven't already heard this story, click here for the looong version)

Suddenly our trip was at a stand still - we stayed in a hotel and had no option but to lounge around for a few hours while we waited for the truck to get fixed. And honestly, looking back, I see God all over the situation.

I have two speeds I am most comfortable with in my life. Fast and faster. While I do take my time doing some things, and I take time to be lazy occasionally, normally I pack my schedule so full that I leave out Me-time, God-time and reflection-time. All three of which I need to, well, mentally, spiritually, and emotionally survive. My few lazy times are because I physically can't keep up anymore either. I constantly struggle to say "no".

This trip just followed along with my normal pace of life.

But for those 4 or so hours we lounged around in the hotel, I had no choice but to slow down. For the first time in a while I took my time getting ready in the morning. I wasn't rushing around - it was nice. Even though nothing exceptionally exciting happened during those 4 hours, and I can't put my finger on when exactly something changed inside of me, those four hours changed me.

And here I sit still trying to process my thoughts.

And figure out what to do next.

To every girl...

I stole this from Laura's myspace bulletin because, well, its so true. Read on...

To every girl that is SCARED to put her heart
out there again, because she has been HURT
too many times or so badly.

To every girl that
dresses cute, not skanky.

To every girl who
wants to be called beautiful, not hot.

To every girl that will spend her whole day
looking for the perfect present for you.

To every girl that would die
to have a decent boyfriend.

To every girl who would just once like
to be treated like a princess.

To every girl that cries at night
because of another heartbreak.

To every girl that
just wants to hold hands.

To every girl that
kisses him with meaning.

To every girl who
just wishes he cared more.

To every girl who would just once want a guy to give
their jacket up when they are cold.

To every girl who
just wants him to call.

To every girl who lies
awake at night thinking about him.

To every girl that
just wants to cuddle.

To every girl that
just wants to sleep with him without having sex.

To every girl who shows how much
she cares and gets nothing back.

To every girl that thought
maybe this one could be the one'.

To every girl that laughs at stupid stuff
when she actually doesn't think it is funny.

To every girl who is just looking for that one
and only and is having a rough time along the way.

To every girl that doesn't want a guy who
just plays with her emotions but actually cares
about how she feels.

To every girl who wants
words backed up with actions.

To every girl that fell for all the lies
only to find themselves alone in the end.

To every girl that gave her heart away
to have it shoved back in her face.

To every girl that has faith that 'tomorrow will be a better day.'

And it will be.

Monday, November 13, 2006


...will be here in 6 weeks....any guesses...anyone...well....






Friday, November 10, 2006

Road Trips..never know what you might get...

As many of you might know, some friends and I left last evening to head to Kansas City, Missouri to visit Laura and Melissa for a long weekend. It started out fairly uneventful...little did we know what the future would hold...

While driving on 80/90 we missed our exit onto 80 - Thanks Mike for being the navigator! - so we took a really long route to try to get back. We ended up driving around parts of Gary until Lindsey and I convinced the guys to backtrack (we temporarily forgot that guys dont like getting help with directions). For a short time we were considering off roading to get to the other side of the road. Luckily enough we found another option at the last minute. We assumed this would be the excitement for the day. We were wrong...much more was in store.

Soon after we got on 80, within a matter of 15 seconds a barrel and two cars tried to hit us! Once again, we thought the excitement was over. Wrong again.

After stopping at a gas station that offered "replicas" of cologne in a coin machine that actually sprayed it onto you, we were on the road with Mike heading up the drivers seat.

Then we hit St. Louis - once again - random freak out that we were getting lost - no worries this time, they just have a strange way of splitting the roads up only to meet again a mile later! Thank goodness it was the middle of the night.

With St. Louis out of the way, Rich, Lindsey and I nodded off. Only to awake when the car jerks from an impact. I believe I may have screamed but I could be wrong. Turns out a monster of a deer ran right across the highway and right into our front left side of the truck! It happened so fast Mike didn't even realize what happened at first. We pull over to check out the truck (we thought we might have been dragging it - no worries there either, no deer left behind) and Lindz and I let the guys get out to check the damage. When I saw Rich's face I knew it wasnt good. We got out to discover the bumper was against the front tire and the headlight was hanging out. We call Laura (read her play by play here) and decide to call 911. We all climb back in the car and realize the drivers side door will not open - then Mike says "Guys I think there's blood on the door" EEK!

So we wait and we wait and we wait. The cop #1 shows up. As he looks at the damage we hear him say "There's shit all over the car" - we assume that meant "stuff". No. He really meant shit. The flippin deer not ran out in front of us, the deer left feces behind! Aaahhh!

Lucky enough the cop and the tow truck driver were really nice and arranged where to take the car where it could get fixed quickly (there was a Chevy dealership nearby) and a hotel for us to stay at. The cop gave us a ride (strange to be in the back of a cop car!) to the hotel and gave us the number of where the car was being taken to and what we needed to do. Thankfully the hotel guy was really nice and told us we could check out late given that we had no idea how long we were going to be here in lovely Warrington, Missouri.

So here we sit, in the hotel room, waiting for our car to get done. Thank goodness they could get it in and make it driveable within a few hours!

And amazingly I am able to see God in all this mess. First off, after the tow driver and the cop tell us this happens every night and that this is deer season, the cop says how lucky we were. I was assuming he meant because none of us were hurt. No he meant we were lucky it happened where it did. If we had been 30 miles farther we would have been in BFE, nowhere near a town with NO cell phone service.

This has given us a whole new definition of the phrase "There's a deer..."

Makes you thankful in even the rough patches. Through all of this we have gotten closer and amazingly are still having a good time!

And through all this, Melissa still does not know that Lindsey and I are on our way with the guys...hehe...should be an interesting rest of the to come...

Thursday, November 09, 2006

Long, but interesting, survey...

1.How old will you be in five years? Ug – 31…wow I’m getting old fast!
2. Do you think you will be married by then? Hope so, but life is ironic sometimes
3. How tall are you? 5'4 ½”
4. What do you look forward to the most in the next 6 weeks?
Not sure if I can tell everyone yet…but its something really exciting!
5. What's the last movie you saw? Last night I watched parts of The Lake House again – love that movie!
6. Who was the last person you called? Amber
7. Who was the last person to call you? A patron with a question
8. What was the last text message you received? Sarah B. this morning
9. Do you prefer to call or text? Depends on the occasion – I text if its something small
10. Do you have any pets? No :( But I have my Jada Bean (Amber and Jarrod’s dog who was my first “niece”)
11. What were you doing at 12am last night? reading, but getting ready to turn off the light
12. Are your parents married/separated/divorced? Divorced
13. When is the last time you saw your mom? This morning
14. What color are your eyes? Hazel – but they have looked really green lately
15. What time did you wake up today? Too early! I got up at 634 so I could workout before work
16. What are you wearing right now? A black long sleeve shirt, gray pants and black shoes
17. What's your favorite Christmas song? I have many, but overall, Winter Wonderland due to sentimental value (My dad always sings it to us for the first snow…well, he lives in Florida, so the first snow in Indiana he hears about. Last year he called and left a message singing it)
18. Where is your favorite place to be? I love to be outside when its nice outside, otherwise surrounded by people I love
19. Where is your least favorite place to be? Someplace awkward
20. Where would you go if you could go anywhere? I want to travel the world!
21. Where do you think you'll be in 10 years? Have no idea!
22. Do you tan or burn? Now don’t think I’m weird, but, I tan on some parts of my body and burn on others (yes I know I am a freak!)
23. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child? The Boogie Man, strangers outside at night – but I never really was afraid of these inside my own home
24. What was the last thing that made you laugh? Probably Deb – she’s always crackin me up!
25. How many TVs do you have? 1
26. How big is your bed? small!
27. Do you have a laptop or desktop computer? I use many many many computers at work
28. Do you sleep with or without clothes on?Um, with…what kind of question is this!
29. What color are your sheets? Right now they are my flannel ones so they are red, white and blue
30. How many pillows do you sleep with? Two but I can deal with just one
31. What is your favorite season? I love all of them for different reasons, but I think mainly Fall
32. What do you like about fall? Crunchy leaves and all the beautiful colors
33. What do you like about winter? Christmas, the first snow that is on the ground untouched, snowmen and snow ball fights
34. What do you like about the summer? The beach!! Being warm, lake houses, swimming, lounging, getting a tan, road trips!
35. What do you like about spring? New life, the beautiful blooms
36. How many states have you lived in? One
37. How many cities/towns have you lived in? Two
38. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet? In the winter, socks, but summer, bare feet!
39. Are you a social person?Most of the time
40. What was the last thing you ate? Lunch
41. What is your favorite restaurant? I love Hana Yori and this little Chinese place in Rochester Indiana
42. What is your favorite ice cream? Varies day to day, but right now Mint Chocolate Chip
43. What is your favorite dessert? Homemade Pecan Pie (with homemade crusts too!)
44. What is your favorite kind of soup?Old fashioned Chicken and Dumplings or Cheddar Chowder my mom makes
45. What kind of jelly do you like on your PB & J sandwich? I like Black Raspberry Jam – yum!

(Where's 46???)

47. Do you like coffee? Not plain, but I love Starbucks!
48. How many glasses of water, a day, do you drink on average?No idea – I normally go through a lot at work and a few at home
49. What do you drink in the morning? Either milk if I have time for breakfast, Apple Juice if I’m sick, but mainly lately Sustain fitness drink
50. Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone? Once I am married, with someone :)
51. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed? I tend to sleep facing the wall…strange I know…and if there isn’t any “wall” to face, I sleep on my left side
52. Do you know how to play poker? used to, not so much anymore
53. Do you like to cuddle? Yup, love it!
54. Have you ever been to Canada? once when I was a kid
55. Do you have an addictive personality? Um, don’t think so
56. Do you eat out or at home more often? Home

(Where's 57??)

58. Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you? Actually, yes!
59. Do you want kids? Yep
60. Do you speak any other languages? Used to know some Spanish and some Japanese, now I don’t remember much at all
61. Have you ever gotten stitches? Yup when I was a kid and I split my lip open – have the scar to prove it
62. Have you ever ridden in an ambulance? Nope
63. Do you prefer an ocean or a pool? Depends…I like both but for different reasons
64. Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seat? Window! Gives you something to lean on to sleep (I know all about trying to sleep on planes after two full days of traveling!)
65. Do you know how to drive stick? Nope – someday though!
66. What is your favorite thing to spend money on? Gifts for other people
67. Do you wear any jewelry 24/7? Nope, I take it all off at night
68. What is your favorite TV show? 24 and Gilmore Girls
69. Can you roll your tongue? Nope
70. Who is the funniest person you know? Jess – man she cracks me up!
71. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? Only when I have had a really rough day!
72. What is the main ring tone on your phone? Something to be proud of by Montgomery Gentry
73. Do you still have clothes from when you were little?yup, somewhere
74. What color are your bedroom walls? white
75. Do you turn off the water while you brush your teeth? Yup cuz I tend to walk around and finish getting ready while I am brushing my teeth
76. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed? Open
77. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of bees? NEITHER!
78. Do you flirt a lot? Nope
79. What do you dip a chicken nugget in? Sweet and Sour or Honey if they are McD’s nuggets
80. What is your favorite food? Salad, pasta and chocolate (strange combo of things I know!)
81. Can you change the oil on a car? Nope but I can check it!
82. Have you ever gotten a speeding ticket? Nope, got a warning once though
83. Have you ever run out of gas? Nope!
84. What is your usual bedtime? 1030

(Where's 85?)

86. Do you read the newspaper? At work I do
87. Do you have any magazine subscriptions?Relevant and Radiant
88. Best comedian? Bill Engval and Jeff Foxworthy
89. Do you watch soap operas? Nope
90. Do you dance in the car? Heck yea I do!

Looooooong Day

Today is one of those days that seems to drag on forever! It is such a beautiful day outside (sunny and warm with crunchy leaves begging to meet my shoe) and here I am - stuck inside. Sometimes I miss substituting just because you are done by 230. Although I really hated the time I had to get up in the morning as well as how exhausting physically and mentally subbing was.

I guess it feels like the day should be over since I spent the morning working at a very fast pace to fix a few computers and then get a new one in our lab to replace one I had to "steal" a few days ago...I am spent already and its on 3:44...

Oh well - atleast I had another awesome walk during my lunch I said...crunchy leaves...hehe...

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

Little Things

I have always been one to appreciate the little things in life...only sometime in the past year I have lost that - and have been working on getting it back since...

I have recently decided to slow down and appreciate all that is going on around me. My pace of life had interfered with my ability to see the little things for their worth. I was becoming a very negative person at times and I missed the old me. And I reached deep inside of me, reached out to God, and found the me that finds happiness in the smallest of things. Just 10 short minutes ago :)

As I was walking on my lunch break I decided to just walk - not talk on my phone, not listen to music, but walk. In the quiet of day. Just me and God. And as I was chatting with God I looked in front of me and stood in awe of what I saw. Beauty. Pure beauty, uninterupted by man. The sun was streaming through the trees, the wind was breezing ever so lightly through the branches, and leaves were gracefully falling to the ground little by little. And it took my breath away.

Thank you Lord for blessing me today with the beauty of your rock!

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

Creepy Library Guys...

Lately the library has become the "It" place to come after school. The afternoon crowd of students literally comes in the door in a wave. Including, but not limited to, kids running to get her first, some major red-faced huffing and puffing and the all to common shoving in front of each other. Needless to say, this is NOT the staff's favorite time to work the desk.

Today the kids had a half day. Translation: Crazy teens coming in early + our lunch bunch of regulars = CHAOS!

And guess who was the blessed person to work the desk at that time. Yup. Me.

During our large waiting list time, there was a guy who came in. I got him signed up on the waiting list and told him it would probably be close to a half an hour. At this point most normal people would check out the library, wander a bit and check back in later. Not this guy though. He sits down in one of our extra chairs and watches me. After 15 minutes had passed, a chair opened that was closer to the desk yours truly was sitting at. And guess who moved to the newly vacated chair. Yup. You guessed right. Thankfully a computer opened up for him soon after and I was freed of the constant heebeegeebee feeling.

Ironically this guy does not fit the profile of the every day creepy guy (trust me I know!) ... he was young and clean. And while, yes, he had cute taste in jeans, he still, never the less, creeped me out!

Saturday, November 04, 2006

The Coffee Incident

I am not a morning person. Especially on Saturdays.

I am a night person. I tend to stay up later than I should. Especially on Fridays.

Hence the non-Saturday morning person.

If I dont have plans or have to work, I rarely see a Saturday morning unless its a continuation of Friday.

This morning proved my point.

I headed to the local Starbucks on my way in to work. Surprise Surprise I ran into Jess there on her way in to our work as well. I had already gotten my coffee and as we were waiting for hers, she asked if ND was playing today. I opened my sweatshirt to show my ND shirt off, and somehow (she remembers better than I) smacked my coffee with my hand and spilled my entire Grande Maple Machiato all over the Starbucks counter. Jess and I laughed, and I said this is why I shouldnt work Saturday mornings. I went back to the cashier to by another and this amazing woman says to me "He's already making you another and I'm not charging you" I thanked her profusely and stepped aside to wait for my 2nd coffee of the morning. When it was done the guy sits it down and says "Now don't spill this one" (No worries, he said it with a smile)

You have no idea how dumb I felt - I would have carried more only I was too tired for it to truly register in my brain...

The upside to all this - they made me a Venti instead to replace my awesome is that!

Thursday, November 02, 2006

Update on Survey of Threes...

Update on Survey of Threes...

I remembered one of my dumbest moments...can't believe I neglected to include this one...

My ex - from Kentucky - three words - "There's a deer"

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

Survey of Threes...

Three things
Three things that scare me
1: snakes!!!
2: losing people I love
3: not portraying who I am well

Three people who make me laugh
1: Carson - man does that kid crack me up!
2: Jessica - now thats one crazy chick!
3: Hailey Bean

Three things I love
1: Chocolate
2: Mail!
3:a. 24
3.b. Gilmore Girls

Three things I hate
1: People I love being so far away
2: Lying
3: People who take and take but never give

Three things I don't understand
1: Library patrons

Three things I love in a Girl/Boy
1: Eyes and smile
2: Loves kids
3: Strength - not just as in the physical either, although that is nice too...

Three ways to best describe my personality
1: random
2: responsible (man is that boring)
3: chocolate-esque

Three things I cant do
1: Wear a shoe on my head
2: Sing an Opera in Italian
3: Drink water while standing on my head

Three favorite movies
1: Empire Records
2: The Goonies
3: Little Mermaid

Three Goals for future
1: Take my children to India
2: Be financially stable
3: Be a mom

Three of your dumbest moments
2: Telling my sister to cut my hair - I was only 2 and it was really bad...
3: I am not admitting to a third one (well, actually, I can't think of a third one right now, although I know there are hundreds lurking in my past...)
Three People I am tagging
1. Melissa
2. Robin
3. Jessica