It hit home...

This song was on the radio this morning right when I needed to hear it. It hit home...it's my prayer right now...

He Will Carry Me
by Mark Schultz

I call, You hear me
I’ve lost it all
And it’s more than I can bear
I feel so empty

You’re strong
I’m weary
I’m holdin’ on
But I feel like givin’ in
But still You’re with me

chorus:
And even though I’m walkin’ through
The valley of the shadow
I will hold tight to the hand of Him
Whose love will comfort me
And when all hope is gone
And I’ve been wounded in the battle
He is all the strength that I will
Ever need
And He will carry me

I know I’m broken
But You alone
Can mend this heart of mine
You’re always with me

chorus

And even though I feel so lonely
Like I’ve never been before
You never said it would be easy
But You said you’d see me through
The storm

Fear and Pain

We all experience them - sometimes together, sometimes apart, but always sometime.

Yes, I know what the Bible says about both. But it doesn't always make it easier when you are going through it.

Right now I am experiencing both. And my fear is getting stronger as the clock ticks by.

Tomorrow morning I have to go get two moles removed and a third scraped - all to be biopsied. While the doctor doesn't think they are melanoma, the fear and doubt is still ever lingering in the back of my mind. "What if the one that would be the hardest to treat is melanoma? What will that look like? How bad will it really be? How am I going to get through it?"

To an outside person the answers probably seem simple - but when you are in the situation, it is not. Fear is a very real thing. And I am scared.

I often wonder how people who don't know God are able to deal with fear-laced situations. I would be a basket-case without Him.

Words too true...

I just got done reading one of my dear friend's blogs...and she posted the lyrics to a song that has really hit home for her lately.

They hit home for me too. It's funny how God works sometimes - moving through the lyrics of a song I have yet to hear...

"Small Enough" By Nichole Nordeman

oh, great god, be small enough to hear me now
there were times when i was crying
from the dark of daniel's den
and i have asked you once or twice
if you would part the sea again
but tonight i do not need a fiery pillar in the sky
just wanna know you're gonna hold me if i start to cry
oh, great god, be small enough to hear me now

oh, great god, be close enough to feel you now
there have been moments when i could not
face goliath on my own
and how could i forget we've marched around
our share of jerichos
but i will not be setting out a fleece for you tonight
just wanna know that everything will be alright
oh great god, be close enough to feel you now

all praise and all honor be
to the god of ancient mysteries
whose every sign and wonder turn the pages of our history
but tonight my heart is heavy
and i cannot keep from whispering this prayer
"are you there?"

and i know you could leave writing on the wall
thats just for me
or send wisdom while i'm sleeping,
like in soloman's sweet dreams
but i don't need the strength of samson
or a chariot in the end
just want to know that you still know how many hairs
are on my head
oh great god, be small enough to hear me now

A Few Favorites

Part of my job is updating the Media player, so I have spent quite a bit of time familiarizing myself with the current medias available. As most of you know, when I really like something, I tell everyone! I want to share my "happiness" with those around me. So today I have decided to post a few of my favorite medias featured on GCCwired.com. Just click on the picture and check them out. Trust me - they are awesome!

4th of July Tribute

When I Grow Up

iDate

Thinking.

Do you ever just wish you could turn your brain off?

That's the point I'm at this late Friday night.

I'm thinking too much. I want to turn it off. It's not working.

Could make for a long night.

Excited I Am!

Okay, so I know it doesn't take a whole lot to excite me sometimes...well...most of the time...but there are a few things coming up that have me especially pumped.

I suppose now you want me to fill you in on what those are.

Well...

If I must...

• Innovate 2007 is coming! I have heard amazing things about these conferences through the GCC grapevine over the years, and this year I finally get to witness it first hand! YES! And along with the main event comes the Countdown 2 Innovate podcast featuring none other than Kem Meyer and Tim Stevens. Trust me, I've listened to every podcast and you never know what random topics may be brought up. And you know how I feel about random things...And of course the hilarious video I blogged about yesterday - a must see!



• The Leadership Summit is quickly approaching! I have only been to one previously but I loved it and am excited I get to attend this year. It's totally worth it and I recommend everyone trying to get there - even if you don't think you are a "leader"

Innovate and Dream

This is a MUST SEE video...I have watched it more times than I care to admit - at least twice is required to get the full effect.

Trust me. It's worth it.

Random Thoughts

I have become a complete slacker when it comes to blogging. I have so much I want to say, and I am constantly thinking about things I want to blog, but to actually find the time, sit down and type is a whole 'nother thing. So, in honor of my re-entry into the semi-regular blogging world, I give you ... drum roll ... one of my random lists.

* I absolutely am in love with Anytime Fitness. It's amazing. And - scary thought - I love to workout. I crave it. I schedule my life around it most days. Don't get me started on how much I love it - I could go for hours!
* Snail mail is the best!
* While I love manicures, I won't be getting them often. Four days is not enough for me. Apparently I am too rough on my nails...
* I had an extreme blonde moment last week. Ask me about it. It's hilarious. A later blog may come with the story.
* I am completely adddicted to chocolate. Lindsay has a container on her desk we all pull from. (She knows how to get people to come see her...) Glad to know I am not the only one who hits up her desk regularly.
* Taco Bell always sounds good at the time. And after the fact, doesn't seem so appealing anymore.
* Wine and Cheese party last Friday. It was amazing! I bought a cute new dress for the occasion. Hey, I've lost weight, it was my reward. Strange for me to wear a dress and like it, but I did.
* My new job has "broken" me. I no longer look at websites the same way. I'm always analyzing their userability and such.
* I hard core cleaned my car yesterday.
* After 6 weeks at my desk it is still neat. Pick yourselves up off the floor now.
* Last weekend's service at GCC was amazing - it was a 4th of July service. Too late to watch it online now...sorry...the media should be online soon. You should watch it.
* I am addicted to a new tv show. I'm not going to tell you what it is though.

My new love...

Yes, thats right, I have moved into a new realm. The realm of nail salons.

I had my very first manicure and pedicure today. Laura, Lindsey and I headed in to get cute toes to go with our cute outfits for tomorrow evening. I had been a pedicure virgin until a few short hours ago. I may have to budget in occasional pedicure money. We then got a great deal and got manicures as well! Surprise surprise, Jeanna messed hers up on the way back to work, but it still looks pretty good!





Pampering is the greatest! I highly recommend it!

(PS - I love picture phones!)