You just never know...

Weird things seem to happen to me. Not necessarily extreme things, just things that don't normally happen in every day life. Today was no different.

I'm going to be completely honest and put it out there that I haven't been to a dentist in over 5 years. (If you are done shaking your head in disapproval, continue on...) I know it's not healthy, but it's true. So I finally found a new dentist and went it today expecting the worse.

Everything was going along fine with my cleaning - no horrifying gasps from the hygienist, no tsks tsks about my dental habits. And then the doctor came in.

When the doctor and the hygienist start talking about your x-rays and there is a sound of confusion and wonder, one starts to get concerned. Of course my mind kicks into high gear thinking "I knew it! I knew something was horribly wrong!" The doctor starts looking into my mouth, feeling around and then asks if I have had my wisdom teeth removed. I told him I had to which I got a reply of "hmmm".

He then tells me that there is something showing up on my x-rays that is very strange. Something that looks like part of a tooth in the back of my mouth where I had my wisdom teeth removed, yet it is not attached to any bone. Just kind of free floating under the surface. Immediately my mind reverts back to the recovery room of my oral surgeon's office - 6 years ago - when I was told part of my tooth was lost and that I would need to be wheeled over to the hospital to get x-rays of my lungs taken.

Is it all making sense yet?

Yep. The missing part of my tooth has been found. Still in my mouth. Not where it belongs. Hanging out. Six years later.

Only me.

Stars

I use Google Reader to follow blogs. It's amazing. One of my favorite features is the "star" feature. It lets me star a blog post that I want quick access to later. I star blogs that really hit home, are blog-worthy themselves, or that have information I want later. It's been a long time since I have gone through all my starred blogs and I decided it's time to share some of my latest favorites with all you wonderful people.

• Postsecret.com - This site is real, it's raw and it often breaks my heart. And it always brings me back to reality. "PostSecret is an ongoing community art project where people mail in their secrets anonymously on one side of a homemade postcard."
• Something I often take for granted
• When life seems to be taking the long way
• Things I often forget about
• A man who is truly building into his son - and I admire him for it
• What many are thinking, but often isn't heard

Alone

I have some amazing people in my life. People that I know I can turn to that will support me when life gets tough and celebrate with me when life is good. Sometimes though I find myself trying to do it all on my own.

The last few weeks have been tough. I've found myself going round and round with God - questioning decisions I've made, struggling for answers, desperate for guidance.

And I've been trying to do it all on my own.

I knew I needed to let someone in on my struggles, but for some reason I couldn't. Many times I picked up the phone to share it with someone, sometimes even getting them on the phone, only to talk about "fluff" instead. I process better when I talk with someone - to get my thoughts out. But I wasn't.

Yesterday while chatting with one of my closest friends, I opened the door ever so slightly. And she could tell I needed to talk. She more or less yanked the door open and made herself right at home.

And it was exactly what I needed.


Saturday U2's song, Sometimes You Can't Make It On Your Own, came on my ipod. Out of 1500 songs, it was one of the first ones while on random. I know God has been trying to tell me something. It just took me a while to listen.

One Picture - One Perfect Statement

The Things We Do...

I'm currently sitting here patiently waiting for the blue goo on my face to turn white and hinder my face from moving in any direction.

Things things we do for beauty...

Love it!

There's a blog that I have been following for a while now. Some days it's photos of objects, some days it's photos of "Chuck" the dog in strange situations, some days it's hilarious stories that quite possibly might make me fall off my chair with laughter. In this blog, the title always matters. You skip the title, you miss out. Trust me.

So today I share with you the blog that most excites me when updated - that makes my day when my Google Reader appears with a new post - that always gets read first...

dooce


Today's photograph is now one of my favorites - I give you - "Yo."


*I recommend subscribing to her blog - you then get the updates from all three categories - her thoughts, her photographs, and her photographs of her dog. If not, then at least check all three categories - so worth it!*

OH, and be warned, she can be highly sarcastic at times and occasionally crude...but always real.

Thoughts Before Bed

• I realized this weekend that I should probably wash my winter coat before the really cold weather arrived so I would be prepared. This bothered me greatly. I'm not ready for winter.
• I love the smells of fall.
• I will go out of my way to step on a crunchy leaf.
• I'm tired of contacts - lasik would be amazing.
• Papa Vino's is amazing but just sits in your stomach for hours afterwards.
• You never know when, using who or how God might answer a prayer. Always keep your eyes and mind open.
• I actually sat down and read a whole book this weekend. It was nice, I miss doing that.
• Tonight I kept thinking it was Tuesday. I have no reason to think it was Tuesday. It just felt like a Tuesday I guess.
• I absolutely love working on in the mornings. If you would have told me 4 weeks ago that I would say that, I would laugh in your face. Now any other time to work out seems lacking to me.
• This morning I regretted cutting my hair off - I really wanted to put it in a ponytail and be lazy. A perfect example of why I decided to cut it all off.
• Starbucks is really smart - give away free itunes everyday. GENIUS!
• I love the flavors of fall beverages.
• Why is it that when I finally start getting a nice shape to parts of my body, the cold season comes and it will be completely unnoticeable due to all the layers and heavy clothes I will be wearing?!
• Sometimes its good to look back to see how far you've come, and sometimes it's good to look ahead to where you are going - but too much of either can be a bad thing.
• I could lock myself away for a year with nothing to do but read, and STILL not run out of books I haven't finished or even opened.
• I still buy more books though.