Fuzzy in the Head...

So, I am still not completely healthy *sigh* but I am feeling slightly better so far *knock on wood* but I am still a little fuzzy in the head! So this blog may be more random than normal!! Scary thought I know...

Yesterday I left work at 230 and by that time thought I was going to either pass out or just die - either would have worked for me! I went home and passed out for almost 3 hours in my bed (I barely had enough energy to put my PJs on) Then I got up, signed a whole bunch of Christmas cards for SCK (Others were busy wrapping presents at someones house and I just couldnt stand not being able to help, so I had to be useful even when I felt like poo) dealt with a couple problems via the phone and crawled back in bed by 930 - I was afraid I wasnt going to be able to sleep...I was wrong...I passed out again until 730 when I had to get up for work. I hope no one coming into the computer lab this morning was expecting a pretty face, because boy it is not one today! I literally just dried my hair (which doesn't really go with this hairstyle) put on a little mascara to look awake and brushed my teeth - didnt do the whole makeup thing which I always do for work and didnt bother touching my hair! I guess I will keep the creepy staring guys away today! Hopefully I can make it through the day although I am not looking forward to lunch time when I have to scrap off my car in order to go somewhere to get something to eat, blah!

As I was looking through my random email accounts today I found a newsletter I receive via email that I never read, so I read it today and here are some of the random articles that were included!! Some made me laugh, one ticked me off and the other was flippin cool...try to guess which is which, hehe

Woman Hires Hit Man...

Narnia...

Christmas this year...

If you guessed the one on churches ticked me off, boy you were right! I have heard of more churches than just the Megachurches who have chosen not to have services on Sunday for Christmas...I guess it makes sense to me that after the pastors have done Christmas Eve services til after midnight then have to get up and do more the next day instead of spending it with their families just kind of frustrates me...If I was a pastor's kid/wife and this happened I have to admit I think I would be a little perturbed...I think Christmas morning should be spent with family. I know in the past when I went to a smaller church, the turn out for Christmas Sunday services were slim and that my family never chose to attend anyway...I wonder how many people who are upset about not having services will actually attend a church service that morning...

Sick...

I am sick, I am still at work and I had a rough evening last night...Please pray for me today...

Last night is actually a funny story...I'll post about it later...

Three Phone Calls...

Last night after nevaeH we all hiked back to Stephen's for some food and socialization time...then out popped Laura with the 1001 Questions book...I must say, I love this book and the conversations that spew from it. I have always thought of it as a great way to get to know people on all different levels...last night though, the questions time opened my eyes to something I have been ignoring for many years....here's how....

Laura's first question to Aaron was "If you were driving on the road and a bear ran out on the road and stopped you and then said you are about to die, you have 3 phone calls to make. One to say I love you, one to say I'm sorry, and the last to say Thank you. Who do you call?" It sounds so simple at first, and then you really start to think about it...and it occured to me that whoever you chose for these three phone calls, why aren't we doing it already. Why aren't we doing it while we have the chance...Why are we deciding to wait until some random bear runs out in front of us to tell these people how we feel...

I had picked out in my head who the three people would be, but the one that stuck out the most was who I would call and tell them "I Love You" I always try to tell everyone in my life that I love them, but then God laid someone on my heart - my uncle.

When my dad's parents had died, there was a huge falling out between my dad and my uncle. It is a long story I don't want to get into now, but my uncle really hurt my dad and my family. (I now know that it was just as Mark Beeson says, hurt people hurt people) That year my sister graduated from high school and sent my uncle an graduation announcement and he sent her a card and a check - (he lives in California and Greece so he is not around here much) - and that was the last we have heard from him. That was in 1996

My sister and I have both tried sending him cards or an email or two over the years, as well as my dad, but all of us had stopped trying years ago. We have all forgiven him and love him - yes even my dad- but he has never responded. We sometimes hear from the grapevine when he has been in town or the ongoings of his life, but that is always from friends of his friends who happen to see him. My dad and my uncle are the only children of my grandparents and he has no children, unless something has changed recently...

I have been fighting an inward battle today over whether or not I should contact him, and I have decided that I need to try again...even if it is just to tell him I love him, I need to do this...I must say though that it isn't hard finding him - he is a professor, and author and a archaelogist so his name and info is not hard to find online. I honestly don't expect him to respond this time either, but with Christmas coming, he needs to know his niece still loves him....

Funny how one random question can spur on so much....thanks Laura....

New "Do"

Do you ever freak out right after you have made a major change to your hair? I almost always do...kind of ironic since I normally don't keep the same hairstyle through more than 2 maybe 3 haircuts - one time I grew my hair out for a friends wedding (for a year!) and soon afterwards I chopped it off...it was making me nuts!

This time it is shorter than it has been in a loooooong time...at first I liked it...then I looked at it again when I was getting ready to curl it, and I freaked! (like I always do!) then everyone I work with said it was very stylish and cute and I think I really do like it...I think I will like it even more when I can use mousse and get a smaller curling iron.

Man, the drama of being a woman...

How...

How do you deal when you have just found out something disturbing about someone you are acquaintances with? Someone you exchange "Hi"s with when you see them...someone who seemed like a great person...someone who has this hidden part of their life...

How do you deal when you will see this person and you know God calls us to love them but you don't know how to act? How can you know if God has changed this person yet or not and if they are trustworthy? How do you know what to say or think or feel? How do you not judge this person for the things they have done?

How do you make this horrible, sick feeling in the pit of your stomach go away?

How do you keep from crying when that's all you feel like doing?

How do you continue on when you are so confused?

How...

Creatures of Habit

Every morning when I have to get out of bed for work my day starts the same - turn off the alarm, turn on the light, turn off the electric blanket, unplug the cell phone from the charger, grab my towel and walk half asleep to the bathroom. If my routine changes, I always feel as if something is wrong and that I will forget something in my half asleep state.

This morning at work I started turning on the computers on the opposite side of the room first. It occured to me that this was not normal, but decided to start where I was at in the room. The only thing different was which side of the room I started on but the whole time I kept feeling as if something was horribly different and uncomfortable - like I was walking backwards or using my left hand - I found myself actually having to think about the process of getting things started because I had broken my habit. It made me think about how often do I start my nightly prayers the same way - out of habit - where I am not actually thinking about what I am saying but reciting the phrases I have used for years - when and how did I become such a creature of habit during these times? This morning, just by changing my normally process at work, I came to the realization that I am going to stop my old habits of praying and actually think about what I am saying - I am going to leave the comfortable, easy habits and begin to pray dangerously....scary thought...but yet....very exciting at the same time...


Just don't expect me to change how I start my mornings - you will not want to see what happens....

Michiana makes CNN

Yes you read right, Michiana made it to the main page on CNN.com ! How flippin cool is that!! It's a video clip of a dog that was rescued from the river right around where I grew up...

Look here!